I Go Twice Around The World But still Cant Find The Hopes

I go back down the years,

and see a picture like a painter looking up at the sky for colours,and then i see it more closely,with feelings,with emotions and with a hope of the lost answers and questions and try to gain them once again,though i cant stop or either hold it,it shares the same trait as a human,but i can catch a recap in my dream so that i clear that bee buzzing somewhere around my ears,i end the buzz with a journey to the past,i have become older and wider and more ahead of those little feelings i had at that time,now its a different look.how age and society changes ur idea of thinking and mindset in just seconds even before u realise they have done their part fully professionally,but i realised that they could not vanish mine,thanks to my intence power which does not let it be conquered by others,i walk all by myself and motivate my independence,its safe and secure,

it feels so priceless when u know all about everyone,who is what and how is their lives related to urs,like all the birds are urs and their food is kept under ur bed,same here,u knoe their natures and past and present and their secrets are in ur heart locked..

This world has got thrill and adventure hidden in every stone u hit down the road,

so instead i walk down and pick the stones up,collect their stories and read them each night, i wake up to drink the last sip of the glass,dont know if the next morning's sunlight would be deserved,i wont loose a moment to look deep,

A Night For The Bride And Groom

A day for when she dresses for him and he prays for her is what i call a day of beauty and pride called Wedding..
They spend the day of their union by waking up in the morning and bathing in milk from head to heart and the glow on the face is so majestic that no cosmetic can compete,cause its happiness not fakeness,
its like they live to the fullest,the groom dancing under the shower for his endless passion and the bride so shy inside but sad to core cause its the day when she leaves her house,her walls,and her parents who've been her pillars,she is girl afterall has to be sent to her in-laws house one day,
but its so priceless to see those heavy pearls in her eyes and like a chain on her neck,sleek and sparkling,
she takes her oath for a new beginning,of responsibilty and companionship for a lifetime regardless of thorns and needles,its not stop her duty,
and then while she puts on the heavy beaded designed perfectly for her,her wedding dress,blood red just like her blood rushing live inside her,and slowly smiles at the mirror knowing she looks so beautiful but doesnt want her own evil eye..
oh god her such looks drives him crazy,
and then its finally done,the touch-up,the sadness,the happiness and the leaving behind memories,she is off to the wedding hall for the departure..
all those whom she loved and cared for stand in disguise,
a fairy enters and shocks everyone,
her hero is right infront waiting for her,how lovely she could be,he says,"never seen such deep cotton like eyes,full of possession,full of dreams,her tears are dried and now its only the soul which is awake,
her shadow is so mine and mine is so hers,
hands in hands,they are bonded together and prays all,
may they live happily ever after,
love them,and will always pray that may all the evil be burnt and angels be shining their wings over them..

Whatever Wherever

Where should i go,
Who should i make understand,
Why,
When dreams and happiness clash at the same time we cant explain,
its all his game,
and if it has to happen and if it doesnt have to then dont complain people,
cause there must be something good behind a disappointment and thats what we dont look at,afterall we are humans and our minds are a mindset of all those boundries we have set for ourselves and dont let them go beyond.
Whatever says some and the rest Wherever..
and this how we speak,decide and do.
But is it right?
have we given it a positive thought,have we prayed for our decision?
NOO
so thats how we end up being hurt,shattered and completely broken up and feel like dying so soon that even the heartbeat doesnt know,but its not the end,its ok it happened,it suffocated,it hurted and then tears just kept rolling down for hours and hours and then the night ended..
Do me a favour says the mind,once again leave me alone,
i need to rest all by myself,
and see the plan for the morning..
sleep dear..

My World,My Mother...

Dear Mother,

A six letter word for some and a word to precious for the rest.

i love my mother alot and really do,

we say things like i can die for u and stuff,

but how many of us actually mean what we say,no accusions but its to make the other person happy,i have a confession to make i can die for my mother and take out my heart if she ever needs it,she the most precious thing i have ever had and will ever have.

Love u mamajani,

miss u aloot,

i know u are with ur parents now,visiting them and i am happy that ur happy but mama i miss u alot and love u soo much,

my mornings seems fruithless without u,

i wake up without ur hugs and kissess and ur adorable nicknames,

i hope u miss me too my world,

God is great,say people and read to but his greatness is his creation of making a mother and her shadows of love which is priceless,

i see my world,my hopes,my dreams,my life,my future and my soul,

in u i see pureness,

ur my veins,my strength and my will,

without u i am like a burnt carcoal,

ur miles away from me but i can feel ur warmth in the pillow i hug,

i wont write any further cause i wont be able to stop crying,

love u sooo much,

take care dear angel,

god bless u alwayss,

and just enjoy urself..

ur daughter..

Rain Rain Go Away Come Again Another Day

Rain Rain Go Away Come Again Another Day,

this rhyme has been on our tongues from the first day at kindergarden,

and children young and innocent say this rhyme when it rains cats and dogs cause they cant go to the playground or play at the field and so their little faces turn down,heart goes small and moods off,

poor mummy cant do anything to make them smile again,even a bar of chocalate or a packet of gummies go tasteless,

the little angels wish that the raindrops stop soon and they see Mr.Sun once again their favourite source,

where children pray in their hearts for no rain,

we adults go either frustrated or romantic and this is how the weather rain is felt by each age group,

no one noticed but a weather is also so important in our lives and it plays its role,

some of us fry starters to treat the coolness,while some get irritated if they were rushing to drop their children to school either picking up or going for a shopping spree and see rain running down their curses have no end,

complains complains complains....

but whats so bad about a sudden water fall?

some people say that the sky is crying,

some say today its bathing time for the angels and some just feel that its the day for the poor,

but its still a misery of why does it rain?

haha its for the crops and the earth to stay cool,

i love rains,no matter why i am how hurried i feel i just feel fresh i look up and thank him for such a pleasent day cause where sunny days itch the skin,rainy days treat the itch..

Stubborn Desires

Desires,
what are they actually?
has anyone ever factually been able to describe it?
till the 21st century its not been done,
science,technology and people have moved,to great heights,great inventions and facts which are mesmerizing..
but desires is beat on which humans are just like puppets,
desires are thousands,
but how many get fulfilled?
how many are in ur dreams and the next morning in ur arms?
very less i believe,
we become rebellious when our desires are really uncontrollable and too worth a possession,
they become stubborn,
they are stubborn indeed,
there are thousands of desires on each my heartbeat skips a second,
my wishes came out too much but were still less to get them,
its natural to fasinate but its too deep to come out of the heart,
in life there is no difference in living and dying,
no one cares,only those who loved ur each movement and then moves on,
the world forgets but only deeds remember the soul who either made them happy or sad,
for god sake says a mother to pain,"dont u touch my son's desires cause its only that he has to be happy before he enters the competitive world,he small,he's young and fragile"..
u and i both have desires they can be for a bar of chocalate or a talent to inherit but how stubborn one's need is comes with faith..
the key word is luck!!
from kings to queens its all about luck,
ur luck treats ur desires with care..
sometimes when i sit in reflection mode,
i think and think and think,
how important luck is and how the world runs for it,
lines at the lottery shop and tears at the mosque and temples and churches to god,so that he can also give them heights and tons of luck from which they can desire and be desirable,
shattered dreams stop these amazing desires to come and make them rejoice but its fate that breaks on down and then completely drowns hopes,
but there is one sentence we should always remember that its desire which come and go not hopes..

My Say

Reading the papers recently and following the records and the issues which have disturbed and alerted some of us.

What is most important is the financial crises hitting the world,whether its the US market or CHINA,

Its in loss,the stocks and the increase in gold,metal,yen,dollar,

from the currencies to banks,

4BANKS ARE DOWN,

I Wonder those who are in big crises how on earth are they sleeping?

come to be practical,

there is a big gap,i mean countries are just trying but its going in the drain,afterall its hard-time people,u got to pray hard..

but how to make one understand,

problems problems everywhere,

the surprising part is that all these accidents are happening because everyone has done a mistake,some have created wars,the others bankruptcy and the others just for funn,

everyday is a bad day says the news headlines,stockers,

and i am honestly with their statements,

but the solution is that when u are in bad time u work hard and not panic and seems like asia is not getting it in the brains while others are getting the trick,

i hope for the better and really do,

everyone has to pay someday so why not on earth instead in heaven and hell?

and yes i am also with God that if he punishes the sinners here it will be a good time,

i mean come to the fact people with higher sources are just ruining the world,

and if he pardons them,then other believers might loose faith and loose hope which i dont want,

the Iraq,Afghanistan,Palestines,Africans,

they need help,

they need freedom,

they need peace,

and they need fairity and rights,

and i want them to get,

their situations and grieves are just speechless,

loosing shelter and waking up with a fear of death is not their right,

it need to be settled,

and i am sure it will be,STOP to those heartless and greedy attackers,

living in a secure city their fear can be felt,

the heart stops pumping when i think about those humans and their situation but one thing i can do is pray,make God agree and plead for their tears and ask for their smiles...