thousands miles of hardship~

A road to success is what we all work for day and night making ends meet and so much of dedication no matter where life brings one,no matter what circumstances are but the road is never forgotten and is where we want to stand fit and fine..

but its tough i believe after many years lived i have realise that the road has so many arrows and stones that my car trembles but my mother once said,where ur car trembles start it again from the same place cause where u fall is where u find success and somehow i am doing the same way,i start my journey where i fell the pain and marks are still aching but i still have faith cause the road ends at happiness and saddness is just the piece of toleration one can feel and sacrifice so why not me afterall we are humans and god has blessed us with the power of overcoming fears and anxieties so why not me?

i cant offend the holy one he has given me the knowledge then why not use it when needed,i believe that children are closer to god..

whenever i look up i can feel the angels looking at me telling me that hey girl smile please!!

i feel the peace in me like someone has thrown roses on my face and the smell spreads deep into the air and touches the beats of my heart..its just a moment of heaven..

i can feel the walls of my heart pounding loudly when i dont see the sky for a day and my blood just freezes..

i wonder if god is listening to me and i pray that my morning feels like a calm ocean and just touches the heights of his kingdom!!

"O GOD IF YOUR THERE HIGH HIGH UP,GIVING ME A SIGHT I WANT THE WORLD TO BE A BETTER PLACE AND MAY THE DAY AHEAD BRING HAPPINESS IN EVERYONES LIFE SO THAT EACH SMILE BRING ME HOPE"THANKS ALOOT...

so all of my readers remember that life is short and if ur reading pls smile cause ur smile is very important for me..

=)

Yellow moon*

This is one month of the year which realli awaits me..

the mid november and the november rain is so beautiful,one strange season which keeps my desires and love wet..

the cool breeze in the night,a drop of tear and a handful of past makes me think through the night like a mad person the questions are why?what?who?whom?how?because?

simple words but difficult answers..

in the journey of life,once the steps are crossed they never come back never..

no matter how much u want them back they are impossible to come..

flowers bloom,people meet and then flowers dies,people seperate despite spring calling nature back but once gone is gone..

a sight can be wrong and right..

but all this is life i guess cause faith only comes when we want it to..

falling down and standing upright again is call winning..

like the yellow moon tonight,i was in my car driving through the streets of a rushed hourly city and then i caught sight of the yellow moon,so big,and so gorgeous..

it reminded me of my childhood nights of thought..

time flies so fast that 9 years went..

without realising whom and who i met on this journey..

once day,night,evening and afternooons go by they just dont turn back and look at u..

the moon is very smart it just controls ur eyes and u soon become the puppet..

how strange is this pattern of a lifetime...

A soap of fragrance..

A day gone,a new morning arrived and a new page turned,each day we have a new thought with a goal and alittle need of salt and pepper and then does it end with good day or bad day..
my day was good watching a movie,having lunch and a pinch of laughter..
total fun!!
its 1 am and i feel real energetic after a hetic and tiring day of walking hear and there,
but still satisfied,
the weather have been so wet today just raining all the way and still we were still feeling heaty,godness it was terrible..
i felt so good like a fragrance of soap u buy of strawberry flavour and its smell just fills the air somewhat like that..
a cup of coffee is the right thing now so gotta make one and continue the night with reading my storybook left,the book is on an interesting turn now and so i am getting involved cant wait for the next chapter to come and tell me the twist of it..
so i better be going now..

make me a part of my own destiny lines..

A post,

A letter,

A poetry,

A piece of white paper on which i see my destiny clear,

A quote of honour,

these are a few things i need to be alive for..

everyday life is a reality in which i find answers so that i breathe for wisdom and thus i have faculty extreme one thats why i call myself an aquarian..

these days life has been passing like nigara falls fast and furious..

have been working on some major issues of life and burning the candles through the night in hope of hopes to come true i hope my ambition will have its way..

surrounded with pens,books,papers and a flow of air i study the night..

i hope whatever i am doing is right,

i want my fixed position soon..

elections are over and mr obama has won,so the world is changing for the better and good and somehow i feel this man has the power and my intuition speaks the truth..

i hope i see freedom and good politics..

2008 is ending with a bitter note from my side,i somewhat learned so much this year and the next few years will go smooth and perfect..

in this few years i asked myself the meaning of faithfulness,my craziness will kill me soon i guess..

its meaning is so strong that one can shiver without a thought..

i feel like i will share myself with my soul unless my heart returns me back myself..

god i feel so strange,this moment i have no emotions and no feelings,why??

no answer,the silence continues..

till the morning comes i shall keep my word..

Right time has come,i am all ready!!!

The right time has come by,when the plot is ready,the characters are there and the emotions are live!!

i am very happy to get things in place even when we say crisis is in town,i dont invite him for lunch..

i celebrate satisfaction of what is right and not what is unexpected,

there is always a rule in life,when happiness comes by just grab it and not think what if sorrows was on its way..

and yes thats how we have to live with hope that one day everything will become ok,

so i have gotten my task completed i am now fully loaded with words..

thanks to the creator that he has made up my mind and given me the strenght to take this thrilling step with no doubts no confusion only passion!!

so as i have started a new journey i follow my favourite phrase"a journey of a thousand miles begins with a step",indeed it does..

i hope all goes well,

hmm right now i am bright awake in the dark wet night its raining and the breeze serves a coffee,so i am in total mood for some relaxing ideas maybe a swim early morning wil do,i better get going have to make myself a cup of coffee and then read alittle..till then a quote for all,

Take a chance! All life is a chance. The man who goes farthest is generally the one who is willing to do and dare..

shadows of a confusion

Each time i wake up,the morning looks so bright,so passionate and like always the hope arises of a fresh start,a new day and a meaningful deed and a mindset is made which helps in living a day more..
i step out of my house,full of energy and a radiant glow for a walk around the city of hopes,culture and a land of which i live.
deep down my soul is confused but my steps dont hesitate they move ahead,they move for the goal for which my heartbeat is assigned for whom i am breathing and for why i work hard.its strange how someone can be so fixed,so alruistic but this is me and i am a true humanitarian.
i believe in idealism and thats why i am happy..
the shadows of confusion always haunt me and i become their friend,drowing myself in thier souls and then knowing what i want.
its scary and its horrifying but i am not afraid of reality.
there are thousands of desires and on each desire there is a wish,i want to fulfill them i want them to be mine so that i can give others as well.
its like that dark night which comes and shatters one but i am that sun who still arises the next morning and shines so that,that shattered glass can get back into pieces and shine like it always did.
i know that life is a puzzle and i am also caught at times but today i am confident that whenever we are messed or confused its the world that makes us weak,makes us paralysed,makes us feel so terrible that our morale just goes down and then we loose hope,but is that fair?
No its not.cause once we fall if we dont get up we will fail.
failure is not want we want we want success and happiness..
so to all my friends,
if there is any confusion,any dilemma,anything hurting just keep ur morale high and keep smiling cause there are many people in this world who want u to be happy and want u to have all the treats...
all the best in life =)

The festive season

So here comes the season of festivals, deepavali and eid..

EID MUBARAK TO ALL MY MUSLIMS FRIENDS..
ramzaan got finally over,and eid came on the 1st of october,what a start of a new month..
so holy and fruithful..
five days have passed by but still i am in the festive mood totally excited and thrilled..
its been many years of celebrating eid but this year eid was totally different totally unexcpected..
i love to see people smiling,laughing,enjoying it gives me a self-satisfaction i cant realli explain cause the feeling is worth a million bucks..
no matter how sad,upset,angry,frustrated or any other disturbing feeling i have i will never let its shadow fall on my face cause when this happens i become sympatic and thats not my rule my rule is make them smile..
going with the flow i went for a dandiya night for the first time and trust me it was great fun,so colourful and people were so enthusiastic my god just by looking at them my energy level rose..
i danced like a mad woman but for the certain hours i felt that i was living to the fullest..
an atmosphere was set and i was just part of it..
a pretty new experience and i hope to go there next year as well and this time full prepared..
atleast i know how to play dandiya properly now..
hmm the year is going to end and 2008 gone..
time is flying so fast,
this year so many events took place that i had no time to realise some important issues but finally i have taken hold on them..
many people say that silence speaks alot and yes it does cause whenever one is silent its pain speaks the story on its own,i have noticed it many time sitting on a coffee table or going to the shore and seeing the eyes of that lonely boy throwing stones in the water just silent..
water had always fasinated me and i always loved the sound of the waves pushing their way to the shore and back..
whenever i look at the sea,my sadness and pain just vanishes away although it leaves a wet feelign but soon drys..
life is game of happiness and sorrows and the empire is god..