Madness

Your my incomplete thirst the one who walks with me,if u agree on my life then my life shall be fulled of pearls,

in which i see u,

i walk in darkness and find myself to the end not lost and neither confused i can see every particle of black and dont fear of them,they reach out to me touching me with their outer shells invisible yet visible,my heartbeat is slow and i can feel my flesh fresh alert..

i am far and fast,

i play the piano in anxiety,

i play to pursue,

i play the notes unwritten,

untouched,

unheard,

i play the sound of my soul,

i lit up the candles around me all around,

i scatter the roses,

i smell the fragrance and dance to the tune in the air,

its bright its burning its true,

i know i am alive,

i always be here,

in my world,

every moment,each time,

i am around,

life has become a season of rain,

i cant believe my destiny,

the rhythem cant break,

i feel the drops of water on my skin,

i am wet yet dried,

its like a valley falling down the mountains with its showers rising,

till today i have always thought that the mand builder had no time,

but when did he make u,

my madness....

what if,

WHAT IF,
thats the question i have been thinking about all the while and god knows when the answer shall be answered,
when friendship is bonded the view of ur enemies should be consulted..
how true is this thought,u get to knnow the past and present of them..
A mosque is made for prayers,but why dont we find god at home first?
there shouldnt be a time when ur chest has to be burned cause there is too much burden and tears absorbed..
if i have to make u understand then why cant u make me smile when i am unhappy?
the eyes seemed to be crying alot,just for once put kajal and show me the beauty again,
just for me,says the mirror in pain..
i am very fearful of loneliness,
where are u my dreams and thoughts?
i cant find u..
where are u?
i am lost,there is no track no road..
i am very upset with u,
sometimes put me in confusion..
for once put me in confusion..
what if i have to burn my soul once again...
put some shadow on my tears..

How can someone tell how much one is in pain..

I sometimes smile in curiosity when someone can tell how much the other one is in pain cause its not natural to,unless u knoe that person deeply..
u can say it as a traumatic bond or a bond of formality but it just happens..
its so difficult to tell how lonely one is when someone whom was urs becomes someone elses,if this is the world then why is the world like this?and if this happens why does it?
if u grab the hand ur soul gets attach will the heartbeat can be felt..
and then the saddness is shared equally..
why does someone break the thread of hope?
doesnt the pain stay for all the centuries..
people say that the bond of love is the bond of years..
life is book of questions and answers left to be asked and each question is important but when its not solved its a blank page..
a page of left memories and a blank not filled..
but the angels on our right and left hands fill in the blanks suspiciously and a page is completed..
a writer writes to express,a painter paints and a singer sings and this is how we live with our feelings..

mix AND match~

2008 is running now no more time left for the year to end and the new year to be celebrated,
what a bad way to end the year with the bombings in bombay and so much of shatterness..
not fair,why must all this happen?
why cant everything be fine?
i cant see the pain being burnt in ashes just for the satisfaction of some heartless people living in this world..
i was also born in the land of india,where culture arises and people have values iin their blood but when people destroy this goodness,it just hurts..
i saw the news,the papers,all gave me the ultimate end..
i just pray all gets well and all those who lost their loved ones shall have the patience to endure the pain and may those victims get heaven in return of their lives...
so we end the year with dreams lost and some hopes risen too..

thousands miles of hardship~

A road to success is what we all work for day and night making ends meet and so much of dedication no matter where life brings one,no matter what circumstances are but the road is never forgotten and is where we want to stand fit and fine..

but its tough i believe after many years lived i have realise that the road has so many arrows and stones that my car trembles but my mother once said,where ur car trembles start it again from the same place cause where u fall is where u find success and somehow i am doing the same way,i start my journey where i fell the pain and marks are still aching but i still have faith cause the road ends at happiness and saddness is just the piece of toleration one can feel and sacrifice so why not me afterall we are humans and god has blessed us with the power of overcoming fears and anxieties so why not me?

i cant offend the holy one he has given me the knowledge then why not use it when needed,i believe that children are closer to god..

whenever i look up i can feel the angels looking at me telling me that hey girl smile please!!

i feel the peace in me like someone has thrown roses on my face and the smell spreads deep into the air and touches the beats of my heart..its just a moment of heaven..

i can feel the walls of my heart pounding loudly when i dont see the sky for a day and my blood just freezes..

i wonder if god is listening to me and i pray that my morning feels like a calm ocean and just touches the heights of his kingdom!!

"O GOD IF YOUR THERE HIGH HIGH UP,GIVING ME A SIGHT I WANT THE WORLD TO BE A BETTER PLACE AND MAY THE DAY AHEAD BRING HAPPINESS IN EVERYONES LIFE SO THAT EACH SMILE BRING ME HOPE"THANKS ALOOT...

so all of my readers remember that life is short and if ur reading pls smile cause ur smile is very important for me..

=)

Yellow moon*

This is one month of the year which realli awaits me..

the mid november and the november rain is so beautiful,one strange season which keeps my desires and love wet..

the cool breeze in the night,a drop of tear and a handful of past makes me think through the night like a mad person the questions are why?what?who?whom?how?because?

simple words but difficult answers..

in the journey of life,once the steps are crossed they never come back never..

no matter how much u want them back they are impossible to come..

flowers bloom,people meet and then flowers dies,people seperate despite spring calling nature back but once gone is gone..

a sight can be wrong and right..

but all this is life i guess cause faith only comes when we want it to..

falling down and standing upright again is call winning..

like the yellow moon tonight,i was in my car driving through the streets of a rushed hourly city and then i caught sight of the yellow moon,so big,and so gorgeous..

it reminded me of my childhood nights of thought..

time flies so fast that 9 years went..

without realising whom and who i met on this journey..

once day,night,evening and afternooons go by they just dont turn back and look at u..

the moon is very smart it just controls ur eyes and u soon become the puppet..

how strange is this pattern of a lifetime...

A soap of fragrance..

A day gone,a new morning arrived and a new page turned,each day we have a new thought with a goal and alittle need of salt and pepper and then does it end with good day or bad day..
my day was good watching a movie,having lunch and a pinch of laughter..
total fun!!
its 1 am and i feel real energetic after a hetic and tiring day of walking hear and there,
but still satisfied,
the weather have been so wet today just raining all the way and still we were still feeling heaty,godness it was terrible..
i felt so good like a fragrance of soap u buy of strawberry flavour and its smell just fills the air somewhat like that..
a cup of coffee is the right thing now so gotta make one and continue the night with reading my storybook left,the book is on an interesting turn now and so i am getting involved cant wait for the next chapter to come and tell me the twist of it..
so i better be going now..