My God

My God,

Is my faith,

Is my worship,

Is my religion,

Is my love,

Is my friend,

Is my body,

Is my soul,

Is my heart,

Is my life,

Is my goal,

Is my aim,

Is my dream,

Is my path,

Is my promise,

Is my memories,

Is my passion,

Is my eyes,

Is my spark,

Is my mosque,

Is my temple,

Is my church,

Is my direction,

Is my connection,

Is my medicine,

Is my security,

Is my companion,

Is my happiness,

Is my sadness,

Is my isolation,

Is my gathering,

Is my everything,

Is my peace,

Is my harmony,

Is my fight,

Is my success,

Is my soil,

Is my sky,

Is my angel,

Is my defender,

Is my mother,

Is my father,

Is my sister,

Is my brother,

Is my world,

Is my universe,

Is my food,

Is my water,

Is my air,

Is my and only mine..

God is everything..

God is with me.

God is with us.

Relationships

Relationships,what are they?who are they?why are they made?for whom are they made?

are they forever?do they always remain yours?what is their existance?are they close?

are they far?who unites them?who destroys them?why break them?why love them?why care for them?is their need necessary?why hate them?who lives in them?why call them?is their closeness real?are they an anxiety?are they beautiful?are they perfect?why do we pray for them?why do we hold them?what are their qualities?what are their flaws?what is their role in our lives?how curious is our need for them?is it that important?

are we so dependable on them?do they know they are wanted?are they devils?are they angels?why do we get possesive about them?why do we sometimes want them dead?

All these questions are always roaming in our minds..

but the answers are a mystery,

for me and maybe for u too,

and this is when i call us and me humans..

this is the human mind..

never satisfied,

always wanting more and more..

sometimes material and sometimes answers..

so i ask u,WHAT ARE RELATIONSHIPS?

Dont know why

Dont know why,but as days pass i feel like i am getting so small,so small in the eyes of the mirror,so small in the eyes of god and everyone..
haha its like those times of ones lives when things are normal yet complex,
and then you want to make that complex things simple and straight and understand why life plays such games?am i suppose to be playing on with it?
or can i quit?of course i cant,if i dont play then why must i live?if i play then i must have the courage to also tell my soul that come on i will win some day and one day i will solve those puzzels that life gives me frequently,and i shall succeed,
as time goes by,as seasons take turns i try to absorb all those shivers and talks,
one thing i noticed,we never grow up,we are not suppose to be called adults,
we are children,small children,big ones and then the oldest children,
but we remain as children,
our love,respect,faith,need,wants and motives are always to want want and want,
we eat like children,dream like children and even work like them,
though one must be thinking that i am mature and sober,
but no thats just the anxiety within us to prove to others that we are old enough,big enough and tough enough to be alone and independent,
but i lack to understand,why must be prove?
cant be like children which we are and stay innocent and fragile and make us realise that we are not yet tough and big that we make our own decisions and prove it,cause who proves he's right is never sure of his intensity..

2010

Here i come again,
2010 is here my friends,
unbelievable how 2009 came and went,so fast like always but this time there was something else to my theory,i always say that time flies and so do we,
always doing new things flying from end of the city back to home from a daily routine,
2010 came and i was very happy to the fact that a new year means a new pattern,a new theme,many new news,many new events and many new people to meet,
my birthday is one event which i adore,it falls in the first month of the year,January..
this year i turned 17,a age making me go near to a new phase of life and responsiblities..
i call this age an age of thought and go..
why?
its an age where u need to think and then make a go or else one can be ready for ups and downs..
coming back to my topic,
2010 has started and what a start..
everywhere there is something new being planned,made and decided..
futures of countries,economies,societies and people are being made by everyone,
so i asked myself what role are these things playing on me?
am i prepared?
yes i am..
of course i am..
cause afterall its now that life has just began,taking a new turn and giving me hints and clues of what to say,do and think about..
i ask u,are u prepared too?